Today is one of those days!
A day that started off with some great cuddling time before getting out of bed with some passionate kissing and heavy petting…
A day that has kept MrsL out of house all day and me working on boring stuff for work: quarterly performance reviews, updating reports, booking travel…
A day without a great lunch time enjoying each other’s company… 😉
A day that makes me question just what the hell I got myself in to by asking MrsL to lock my cock in steel…even though it has made a huge difference for us as a couple.
I can’t put my finger on why today is such a struggle. I have never been this happy in my entire adult life. Our relationship, the sex, the communication, the simple joy of just being together has never been better. And if I am being honest, it really isn’t about wanting to have an orgasm, or is it; even though it has only been 10 days since my last one. Maybe it is….but I am glad I am locked (can you say paradox)?
I do know this, the fact that I just booked a two week business trip to Europe is really driving this struggle. I don’t want to be away from MrsL for a day…let alone two full weeks. I have never stressed over being away from her or the family. I love travel becasue it lets me see the world, meet new people, and experience other cultures (yes even as a business traveler); however, this time feels different and I don’t know why. She and I have been discussing the potential for this trip since the information about the potential fraudulent activity arrived. She has graciously agreed to let me fly without the Steelheart but absolutely EXPECTS me to lock up as soon as I arrive, which I will gladly do. Therein lies the struggle and it is truly not being locked up! It is being locked up and away from her for such a long period of time. I know not being able to hold her, touch her, and make her feel awesome will be difficult for me. I also know it will be difficult for her…but she will be sleeping on my pillow for two weeks. Okay, I know that sounds corny but she has told me that is how she sleeps when I am not at home.
The good news, I have a couple of weeks to mentally prepare for the trip. I am sure once she gets home and I can give her a nice long hug this will all go away, except for worrying about the trip.
Even though I am struggling…I know it is temporary…!